Crown Chakra, Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Reflection of 2017

Going into and maintaining throughout the year of 2017 has been the toughest task of my life.  “Dont expect others to value you as much as you value yourself” -Moore. 2017 started off with a break/separation that was long over due from one person I expected to cherish me the most. December 16, 2016 I moved out of a home I shared with my “other half” into my own space. Living alone on my own for the first time in life was pretty depressing starting off. I struggled with having steady income, being behind in school and failing courses in graduate school. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I was completely unhappy with life. One day I began to write in my box and the first thing I wrote to myself was ” Self-love and Self-care, learn it”. From that moment I no longer wanted to dwell on what was and I decided to stop stressing over little things.

“Growth is a must. Starve your distractions  and feed  your focus” – Eball. It was time to focus and find things that made me happy and learn to be independent without depending/needing the presence of others.  So I did that! I recorded my progress in my box. I decided to delete all social media for a year, take a break from school and just go on this self exploration journey! Mission accomplished…. 2017 I renewed my passport and traveled to two places out the country I’ve never been and one recurring place. I traveled to over 20 new states this year.

“The more we learn, the more we learn, the more we have to learn” K. Anderson. As the year progressed I’ve learned more and more about myself. I’ve learned how to be humble (hardest task ever)  I’ve learned happiness, I’ve learned how to meditate properly and become more grounded, I’ve learned inner peace, I’ve learned that I wear my emotions on my sleeve and talking to someone always helps. I’ve learned not to take things serious, I am no longer AS agressive as I use to be, I’ve learned that I gain satisfaction by seeing other happy. I’ve learned to give advice, I’ve learned to be more productive with my job, I’ve learned coping skills from work that I was able to utilize for myself.

Lastly I learned “true love = trust = health = promise = faith = unity = peace = mind = strength = forgiveness = life = you”-Amal. Best part about my struggle was having the support from work and my friends. Always surround yourself with positive beings! Any obstacle is nothing more but a life lesson. A year full of chaos was nothing more than a beautiful struggle I endured on my own.

Everyone knows that I grew as the only child and spoiled. But my mom cut the cord once I graduated from undergraduate school. I accomplished so much on my own this year (even though I graduated two years ago). I am ending 2017 with positivity and a smile. OOOOHHHH I also learned that I am expecting and I looking forward to meeting my little one when that time comes. In 2018 my goal is to be a more balanced individual and an awesome mom!!!

 

“Remember to love selflessly not selfishly”

12/31/2017

p.s All quotes came from my box of 2017 from co-workers and family members! thank you guys again.

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Sacral Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Do high expectations set you up for disappointments?

We all have expectations in our lives. Me personally I have expectations of myself and others. I do believe having expectation can affects ones happiness, if you allow it to. The easiest thing people can say is to not have expectations of others, but my thing is whether you’re my friend, family member, significant other, dog, cat, if i put a certain effort into something based off of our relationship I’m going to “want” the same effort back. I was told ” the nature of relationships shows that one might give more and others might or might not, everyone behavior is different”. I try to always put a lot of effort into a relationship doesn’t matter which one it is and as stated before I “would like” the same in return. Sometimes I live up to my expectations and others usually don’t, but that’s okay! Just because you shoot for the  stars doesn’t means others will be willing to do the same. My co-worker stated that he always have high expaectations of people he surround himself by and whether or not they meet his expecatations, he never give up, he keeps trying. I thinks its great to have high expaectations, holding not only yourself but others to a high standard pushes everyone to be a better person. Most people perform their best when living up to high expectations. When people don’t live up to my expectations I am slightly disappointed, but that’s my issue not theirs and no one should be penalized for it. I can’t change a person or judge them for not living up to what I wanted them too, because at the end of the daythey don’t owe me anything. You learn a person flaws and who they are when expectations are put in place, that doesn’t mean become disappointed with them. It’s all a learning experience!  So its okay to have low or high expectations and there’s nothing wrong with being the one who often goes above and beyond all the time. I love knowing that I put my best effort into something whether I get what i want back or not. My attempt to the goal was enough satisfaction to keep myself pleased. So never be disappointed when people don’t live p to “your” expectations, just be great and continue aiming high!

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Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Seven Days of Affirmations

I’m doing the seven days of affirmations presented by the lovely journalist Alex Elle.
Its day two and I am a bit behind on the challenged but better late than never right! As a counselor, I educate my clients on gratitude journals and positive affirmations, but never really took the time to try it out myself so here it goes. It’s not easy to think of positive things to say and I never really say anything positive about myself.
Dates: 7/17-7/24

Day1: Word choice are Love, Prevails and Trials

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Life is a big method of trial and error. Some people tend to be discourage when they have attempted to do something and failed in the process. Personally, I keep trying until the success is achieved but some people might just give up. Example of Trial and Error in my life: Last post I talked about going biking, now I didn’t know how to ride the bike but I kept trying until it became natural to ride. Some things in life require you to fail, it’s simply a lesson. Just because you failed at doing something doesn’t make you a failure but it should motivate the person to want to do better or at least learn from their experiences.

Day2: Word choice Hurt, Healing, Forward

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If you ever been hurt your bound to feel vulnerable, it’s natural. I’ve been hurt several times and angry with everyone. I decided to be miserable and dwelled on being hurt than trying to move forward. When your hurt you tend to feel stuck in one place and you get nowhere. I used to question how do I get through this? where so I start in order to move forward? why am I not strong enough? Or often compared my misery to others. Healing isn’t an easy process, but if learn ways to cope with your emotions or have a support circle it can be. Choose progression and growth over any obstacle in life.

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Heart Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra

4 days of fun

So since my last post I’ve been doing things I wouldn’t normally do. It’s usually hard for me to break my normal routine, but after awhile you will realize that your life need new adventures.

Day 1. Biking

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Never have I ever thought I would learn how to ride a bike….. YES LEARN at the age of 24 I have never owned a bike. After a few falls and attempts, I mastered the skill. Biking was a very tiring expereince especially for a person who’s not in perfect shape, but I absolutely loved it. I felt amazing after riding, my heart rate was up, my body was more relaxed, I met alot of people and the scenary of the trails are awesome! Purchasing my own bike is currently a goal.

Day 2. Yoga In the Park

IMG_1337Yoga in the park is a thing! It comes every summer and leaves by winter. I’ve been doing yoga in the park since summer of 2016 and now it’s back. This day was extremely hot and first day of doing yoga again was tough. I enjoy doing yoga because it keeps me grounded and focused. Yoga helps me feel alive and present. Working in the mental health field doing yoga teaches me how to breathe and learn how to react to stress peacefully. Yoga makes me feel strong and liberated! I encourage everyone to do yoga as much as possible.

Day 3. Indoor Rock climbing

IMG_1647A friend of mine talked me into rocking climbing, he stated that this sport helps reduce stress, increase brain functioning and build confidence. Well…. I was trying to figure out where the hell he got this information from because I almost had an anxiety attack lol. I have a huge fear of heights, so rock climbing was quite an experience. Mentally I believe rock climbing teaches you determination, even though by body was tired by the second go round I wanted to finish. Nothing else mattered the goal was for me not to give up and I didn’t! Now what made it hard for me was that once I reached the top I was afraid to come back down. I refused to jump off the wall and use the rope to come down, so instead I climbed down. My body was extremely sore rock climbing requires a lot of strength, strength in which I lacked lol! It was an experience maybe I workout a few times before I decide to do it again.

Day 4. Soccer

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Once upon a time I played soccer in my youth. This day a few of my girlfriends and I decided to give it a shot! Boy was it an epic fail, it was fun but we were all rusty! None of us were physically in shape to run from one goal to another, were definitely burnt out really quick. Having fun was the ultimate accomplishment, everyone should play a sport you’re not good at it brings laughter.

 

 

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