Crown Chakra, Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Reflection of 2017

Going into and maintaining throughout the year of 2017 has been the toughest task of my life.  “Dont expect others to value you as much as you value yourself” -Moore. 2017 started off with a break/separation that was long over due from one person I expected to cherish me the most. December 16, 2016 I moved out of a home I shared with my “other half” into my own space. Living alone on my own for the first time in life was pretty depressing starting off. I struggled with having steady income, being behind in school and failing courses in graduate school. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I was completely unhappy with life. One day I began to write in my box and the first thing I wrote to myself was ” Self-love and Self-care, learn it”. From that moment I no longer wanted to dwell on what was and I decided to stop stressing over little things.

“Growth is a must. Starve your distractions  and feed  your focus” – Eball. It was time to focus and find things that made me happy and learn to be independent without depending/needing the presence of others.  So I did that! I recorded my progress in my box. I decided to delete all social media for a year, take a break from school and just go on this self exploration journey! Mission accomplished…. 2017 I renewed my passport and traveled to two places out the country I’ve never been and one recurring place. I traveled to over 20 new states this year.

“The more we learn, the more we learn, the more we have to learn” K. Anderson. As the year progressed I’ve learned more and more about myself. I’ve learned how to be humble (hardest task ever)  I’ve learned happiness, I’ve learned how to meditate properly and become more grounded, I’ve learned inner peace, I’ve learned that I wear my emotions on my sleeve and talking to someone always helps. I’ve learned not to take things serious, I am no longer AS agressive as I use to be, I’ve learned that I gain satisfaction by seeing other happy. I’ve learned to give advice, I’ve learned to be more productive with my job, I’ve learned coping skills from work that I was able to utilize for myself.

Lastly I learned “true love = trust = health = promise = faith = unity = peace = mind = strength = forgiveness = life = you”-Amal. Best part about my struggle was having the support from work and my friends. Always surround yourself with positive beings! Any obstacle is nothing more but a life lesson. A year full of chaos was nothing more than a beautiful struggle I endured on my own.

Everyone knows that I grew as the only child and spoiled. But my mom cut the cord once I graduated from undergraduate school. I accomplished so much on my own this year (even though I graduated two years ago). I am ending 2017 with positivity and a smile. OOOOHHHH I also learned that I am expecting and I looking forward to meeting my little one when that time comes. In 2018 my goal is to be a more balanced individual and an awesome mom!!!

 

“Remember to love selflessly not selfishly”

12/31/2017

p.s All quotes came from my box of 2017 from co-workers and family members! thank you guys again.

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Root Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Box of 2017

Going into the new year of 2017 started off pretty rough. The clinician at my previous job gave me the idea of making a forgiveness box for those who brought negativity in my life. I started off with the first couple of sticky notes with forgiveness statements and quotes, but I realized I didn’t really want to do that anymore. I wanted to create box where for the year of 2017 I write down things I was going to learn from, life experiences, things I would accomplish, quotes/book sayings or even advice given by family friends. Of course I also wanted to keep the forgiveness thing going as well.

I brought a safe box from Walmart and attempted to decorate it but using spray paint and glitter, unfortunately it didn’t come out the way I vision it would be. As the year began to pass by I began to have others participate as well, I took my box to work encouraging my coworkers to write things they have learned so far this year whether it be from a quote or life experiences. I also had my clients and friends participate too! Anyone who came to visit while at home had to write in the box before entering my home. The goal is to see how much everyone actually progressed through the year. Are people actually paying attention to what goes on in their lives? Are they learning from positive or negative life experiences? Have any changes been made? From December of 2016-December of 2017 I  promised not to read any of the submission until New Years Eve.

WELL today is my lucky day! I am super excited to see what others have written as well as myself. Thank you to everyone who participated!

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Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Deep Cleanse

IMG_2362Okay so I know this picture looks absolutely gross, but this is what I’ve been dealing with my ENTIRE life. Scalp psoriasis is a mother**** I tell you! I have random outbreaks so I never know when my scalp is going to feel inflamed which is completely annoying, and the dermatologist prescribe medicated items that just make things a lot worse. What pissed me off the most was my stylist knew and was aware of my outbreak, she did absolutely nothing to treat my hair. A few days later this crap happened!  I’m still trying to learn the triggers though, so I’m trying to reduce my stress level and watch what I eat of course.

My boss and a few co-workers of mine recommended that I do a deep cleanse that would assist me with the dreadful problem, The famous apple cider vinegar/baking soda rinse, she stated that it was the best way to deep clean my locs. Sooo I decided to try it because I was tired of wearing freaking head wraps and feeling dirty knowing my scalp was producing a large amount of dandruff.

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I already had the apple cider vinegar because I like to drink it with some water. I already had the baking soda as well because I use it to make a face mask.. So yeah the only thing that was purchase was th lemon! I did my research of course and watched some YouTube vides to make sure this was completely safe, because I didn’t want any surprises.

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I took some pictures of the water as I added the ingredient into it, for those who want to try this don’t be puzzled of the water changes like I was lol because that’s apart of the whole experiment. But in these two picture it’s just showing how the water looks after I added the lemon.

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So of course online they give you the proportion sizes of the amount your suppose to add in the water, but who actually follows directions?? lol I know I don’t. In this picture I put what I thought was a decent amount of the vinegar and baking soda in the water. If the water starts to bubble that’s a norm, nothing drastic will happen. I also added some tea tree oil to the mix as well.

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I soaked my locs for 15 minutes the first time (I repeated this method twice) and the second time for about 30 minutes. This is how the water looked when I was done the second time. My hair was extremely dirty, three years worth of build up and recent dandruff… gross I know… Trying this cleanse not only cleaned my scalp and reduce the irritation of my scalp but it also, got rid of all the lent that was caught in my locs. I immediately conditioned my hair with a coconut deep conditioner afterward because baking soda will make your hair dry and brittle. Then I put a mix of tea tree oil, Jamaican black castro oil and raw coconut oil in my hair while drying it so ensure that my hair is moisturized.

 

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Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Loc’Versary

I’m a little late on some post I’ve been extremely busy and I have zero time management skills.

As of July 13, 2017, marks three years of my Loc journey. These three years has been tough, but it taught me how to love myself unconditionally. When I started my locs I was excited to have them, until no one around me ever had anything nice to say about them. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I constantly questioned if I made a mistake. The thought of cutting my hair off and starting over just wasn’t an option for me anymore. As the process progressed I started to hate how I looked and I felt completely hideous…. Every day I received unacceptable comments from my friends, family and even my work place. It’s like when you meet someone new the first thing they look at was my hair I felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere. A year passed, then they began to grow on me, I had my days where I would stare at myself in the mirror for hours practicing positive statements (e.g “Fatima you are a beautiful black queen”). At one point, I was wearing make-up excessively to make up for my insecurities and everyone who knows me know I’m not a huge fan of make-up. Second year came around and I started not to care about what others thought, my dad had Locs my entire life and as a Rastamon he never tried to fit into society means. Growing up in mix cultural family no matter where in the world whether in Jamaica or here in American having locs were never accepted, they are considered dreadful, dirty and whatever else people came up with. He told me I had to start loving myself in order to feel real beauty. My dad and I aren’t really so his advice meant a lot to me, yet he was the only one who ever made me feel good about my journey. My locs started to grow longer every couple of months and after a while the compliments started, at this point I didn’t care if anyone had something mean or nice to say about my hair. I am completely in love with my Locs and how I look with them. There’s nothing dreadful about my locs and I am quick to comment when people refer to my hair as “dreadlocks”
I am my hair and pretty girls do Loc!

 

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Root Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra

Day 4

Word choice: Enjoy, Journey, and failure.


Wherever there’s failure there’s success. Failure hurts but it’s indeed a part of life, I’ve failed more than I would ever admit. I can’t say I like failing but I’m human. BUT without failure what do you learn? Failure has taught to me how to be compassionate, empathetic and goal oriented. It’s always good to fail because its a steppingstone. When people become successful they always forget their journey, their struggle and past. Every time I failed at something at that moment I became overwhelmed, stressed out and even more dramatic than I am now! The journey of failure shaped my character, taught me growth, and allowed me to become humble. Without failure how would you reach your potential?….

They say “if you never failed, you’ve never lived” so everyone go out and fail at something lol just kidding!

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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Day 3

Word choice: Beyond, Circumstance, Joy

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I try to never let negative people and horrible circumstances steal my joy. One bad situation can bring stress upon anyone and how you react to it determines your emotional state. I read a book by Robert Schram called “Maximize Life by Living for Peace, Harmony and Joy.” In this book, her states “bring joy to wherever you go and do not react to circumstances. You make your own circumstances and can change those that discourage, or bring you and others down” (Schram, pp. 281). He helped me realize that no matter the circumstances are every situation has potential to bring gratitude and happiness to your life. Nowadays I attempt shed light on everything even if it’s the hardest thing to do. Be the light and shine light one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Seven Days of Affirmations

I’m doing the seven days of affirmations presented by the lovely journalist Alex Elle.
Its day two and I am a bit behind on the challenged but better late than never right! As a counselor, I educate my clients on gratitude journals and positive affirmations, but never really took the time to try it out myself so here it goes. It’s not easy to think of positive things to say and I never really say anything positive about myself.
Dates: 7/17-7/24

Day1: Word choice are Love, Prevails and Trials

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Life is a big method of trial and error. Some people tend to be discourage when they have attempted to do something and failed in the process. Personally, I keep trying until the success is achieved but some people might just give up. Example of Trial and Error in my life: Last post I talked about going biking, now I didn’t know how to ride the bike but I kept trying until it became natural to ride. Some things in life require you to fail, it’s simply a lesson. Just because you failed at doing something doesn’t make you a failure but it should motivate the person to want to do better or at least learn from their experiences.

Day2: Word choice Hurt, Healing, Forward

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If you ever been hurt your bound to feel vulnerable, it’s natural. I’ve been hurt several times and angry with everyone. I decided to be miserable and dwelled on being hurt than trying to move forward. When your hurt you tend to feel stuck in one place and you get nowhere. I used to question how do I get through this? where so I start in order to move forward? why am I not strong enough? Or often compared my misery to others. Healing isn’t an easy process, but if learn ways to cope with your emotions or have a support circle it can be. Choose progression and growth over any obstacle in life.

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