Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Deep Cleanse

IMG_2362Okay so I know this picture looks absolutely gross, but this is what I’ve been dealing with my ENTIRE life. Scalp psoriasis is a mother**** I tell you! I have random outbreaks so I never know when my scalp is going to feel inflamed which is completely annoying, and the dermatologist prescribe medicated items that just make things a lot worse. What pissed me off the most was my stylist knew and was aware of my outbreak, she did absolutely nothing to treat my hair. A few days later this crap happened!  I’m still trying to learn the triggers though, so I’m trying to reduce my stress level and watch what I eat of course.

My boss and a few co-workers of mine recommended that I do a deep cleanse that would assist me with the dreadful problem, The famous apple cider vinegar/baking soda rinse, she stated that it was the best way to deep clean my locs. Sooo I decided to try it because I was tired of wearing freaking head wraps and feeling dirty knowing my scalp was producing a large amount of dandruff.

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I already had the apple cider vinegar because I like to drink it with some water. I already had the baking soda as well because I use it to make a face mask.. So yeah the only thing that was purchase was th lemon! I did my research of course and watched some YouTube vides to make sure this was completely safe, because I didn’t want any surprises.

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I took some pictures of the water as I added the ingredient into it, for those who want to try this don’t be puzzled of the water changes like I was lol because that’s apart of the whole experiment. But in these two picture it’s just showing how the water looks after I added the lemon.

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So of course online they give you the proportion sizes of the amount your suppose to add in the water, but who actually follows directions?? lol I know I don’t. In this picture I put what I thought was a decent amount of the vinegar and baking soda in the water. If the water starts to bubble that’s a norm, nothing drastic will happen. I also added some tea tree oil to the mix as well.

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I soaked my locs for 15 minutes the first time (I repeated this method twice) and the second time for about 30 minutes. This is how the water looked when I was done the second time. My hair was extremely dirty, three years worth of build up and recent dandruff… gross I know… Trying this cleanse not only cleaned my scalp and reduce the irritation of my scalp but it also, got rid of all the lent that was caught in my locs. I immediately conditioned my hair with a coconut deep conditioner afterward because baking soda will make your hair dry and brittle. Then I put a mix of tea tree oil, Jamaican black castro oil and raw coconut oil in my hair while drying it so ensure that my hair is moisturized.

 

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Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Loc’Versary

I’m a little late on some post I’ve been extremely busy and I have zero time management skills.

As of July 13, 2017, marks three years of my Loc journey. These three years has been tough, but it taught me how to love myself unconditionally. When I started my locs I was excited to have them, until no one around me ever had anything nice to say about them. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I constantly questioned if I made a mistake. The thought of cutting my hair off and starting over just wasn’t an option for me anymore. As the process progressed I started to hate how I looked and I felt completely hideous…. Every day I received unacceptable comments from my friends, family and even my work place. It’s like when you meet someone new the first thing they look at was my hair I felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere. A year passed, then they began to grow on me, I had my days where I would stare at myself in the mirror for hours practicing positive statements (e.g “Fatima you are a beautiful black queen”). At one point, I was wearing make-up excessively to make up for my insecurities and everyone who knows me know I’m not a huge fan of make-up. Second year came around and I started not to care about what others thought, my dad had Locs my entire life and as a Rastamon he never tried to fit into society means. Growing up in mix cultural family no matter where in the world whether in Jamaica or here in American having locs were never accepted, they are considered dreadful, dirty and whatever else people came up with. He told me I had to start loving myself in order to feel real beauty. My dad and I aren’t really so his advice meant a lot to me, yet he was the only one who ever made me feel good about my journey. My locs started to grow longer every couple of months and after a while the compliments started, at this point I didn’t care if anyone had something mean or nice to say about my hair. I am completely in love with my Locs and how I look with them. There’s nothing dreadful about my locs and I am quick to comment when people refer to my hair as “dreadlocks”
I am my hair and pretty girls do Loc!

 

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Root Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra

Day 4

Word choice: Enjoy, Journey, and failure.


Wherever there’s failure there’s success. Failure hurts but it’s indeed a part of life, I’ve failed more than I would ever admit. I can’t say I like failing but I’m human. BUT without failure what do you learn? Failure has taught to me how to be compassionate, empathetic and goal oriented. It’s always good to fail because its a steppingstone. When people become successful they always forget their journey, their struggle and past. Every time I failed at something at that moment I became overwhelmed, stressed out and even more dramatic than I am now! The journey of failure shaped my character, taught me growth, and allowed me to become humble. Without failure how would you reach your potential?….

They say “if you never failed, you’ve never lived” so everyone go out and fail at something lol just kidding!

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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Day 3

Word choice: Beyond, Circumstance, Joy

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I try to never let negative people and horrible circumstances steal my joy. One bad situation can bring stress upon anyone and how you react to it determines your emotional state. I read a book by Robert Schram called “Maximize Life by Living for Peace, Harmony and Joy.” In this book, her states “bring joy to wherever you go and do not react to circumstances. You make your own circumstances and can change those that discourage, or bring you and others down” (Schram, pp. 281). He helped me realize that no matter the circumstances are every situation has potential to bring gratitude and happiness to your life. Nowadays I attempt shed light on everything even if it’s the hardest thing to do. Be the light and shine light one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Seven Days of Affirmations

I’m doing the seven days of affirmations presented by the lovely journalist Alex Elle.
Its day two and I am a bit behind on the challenged but better late than never right! As a counselor, I educate my clients on gratitude journals and positive affirmations, but never really took the time to try it out myself so here it goes. It’s not easy to think of positive things to say and I never really say anything positive about myself.
Dates: 7/17-7/24

Day1: Word choice are Love, Prevails and Trials

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Life is a big method of trial and error. Some people tend to be discourage when they have attempted to do something and failed in the process. Personally, I keep trying until the success is achieved but some people might just give up. Example of Trial and Error in my life: Last post I talked about going biking, now I didn’t know how to ride the bike but I kept trying until it became natural to ride. Some things in life require you to fail, it’s simply a lesson. Just because you failed at doing something doesn’t make you a failure but it should motivate the person to want to do better or at least learn from their experiences.

Day2: Word choice Hurt, Healing, Forward

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If you ever been hurt your bound to feel vulnerable, it’s natural. I’ve been hurt several times and angry with everyone. I decided to be miserable and dwelled on being hurt than trying to move forward. When your hurt you tend to feel stuck in one place and you get nowhere. I used to question how do I get through this? where so I start in order to move forward? why am I not strong enough? Or often compared my misery to others. Healing isn’t an easy process, but if learn ways to cope with your emotions or have a support circle it can be. Choose progression and growth over any obstacle in life.

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Heart Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra

4 days of fun

So since my last post I’ve been doing things I wouldn’t normally do. It’s usually hard for me to break my normal routine, but after awhile you will realize that your life need new adventures.

Day 1. Biking

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Never have I ever thought I would learn how to ride a bike….. YES LEARN at the age of 24 I have never owned a bike. After a few falls and attempts, I mastered the skill. Biking was a very tiring expereince especially for a person who’s not in perfect shape, but I absolutely loved it. I felt amazing after riding, my heart rate was up, my body was more relaxed, I met alot of people and the scenary of the trails are awesome! Purchasing my own bike is currently a goal.

Day 2. Yoga In the Park

IMG_1337Yoga in the park is a thing! It comes every summer and leaves by winter. I’ve been doing yoga in the park since summer of 2016 and now it’s back. This day was extremely hot and first day of doing yoga again was tough. I enjoy doing yoga because it keeps me grounded and focused. Yoga helps me feel alive and present. Working in the mental health field doing yoga teaches me how to breathe and learn how to react to stress peacefully. Yoga makes me feel strong and liberated! I encourage everyone to do yoga as much as possible.

Day 3. Indoor Rock climbing

IMG_1647A friend of mine talked me into rocking climbing, he stated that this sport helps reduce stress, increase brain functioning and build confidence. Well…. I was trying to figure out where the hell he got this information from because I almost had an anxiety attack lol. I have a huge fear of heights, so rock climbing was quite an experience. Mentally I believe rock climbing teaches you determination, even though by body was tired by the second go round I wanted to finish. Nothing else mattered the goal was for me not to give up and I didn’t! Now what made it hard for me was that once I reached the top I was afraid to come back down. I refused to jump off the wall and use the rope to come down, so instead I climbed down. My body was extremely sore rock climbing requires a lot of strength, strength in which I lacked lol! It was an experience maybe I workout a few times before I decide to do it again.

Day 4. Soccer

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Once upon a time I played soccer in my youth. This day a few of my girlfriends and I decided to give it a shot! Boy was it an epic fail, it was fun but we were all rusty! None of us were physically in shape to run from one goal to another, were definitely burnt out really quick. Having fun was the ultimate accomplishment, everyone should play a sport you’re not good at it brings laughter.

 

 

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Solar Chakra

Stop impressing…

Lately. . . .

After reflecting on my day and reading this quote, I realized that when I interact with certain individuals in particular settings I attempt to impress them. 

Now I’m questioning why do I do that? Why don’t I realize it at that given moment? Was I attention seeking ? Was this apart of my insecurities? 

Why am I attempting to impress? 

Trying to impress others does nothing but hurt the individual trying to hard. I’m realizing that I don’t surround myself around individuals who think highly of me, so I try to change people perception of me. I tend to feel like I don’t fit in or I can’t be myself around others. Sadly when I’m around people you might think I should be comfortable around I feel the same. I feel like I’m not loved, unappreciated, unnoticed, etc…

How I would address the issue moving forward

My actions stem from a lack of confidence and an abundance of insecurities. I have to try focusing on how to build up my self-confidence, becoming more open minded, accepting things for what they are, and increasing self-awareness. 

For those who can relate keep in mind that you are perfect no matter what emotions you’re feeling. No need to impress when you’re already impressive! 

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