Crown Chakra, Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Reflection of 2017

Going into and maintaining throughout the year of 2017 has been the toughest task of my life.  “Dont expect others to value you as much as you value yourself” -Moore. 2017 started off with a break/separation that was long over due from one person I expected to cherish me the most. December 16, 2016 I moved out of a home I shared with my “other half” into my own space. Living alone on my own for the first time in life was pretty depressing starting off. I struggled with having steady income, being behind in school and failing courses in graduate school. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I was completely unhappy with life. One day I began to write in my box and the first thing I wrote to myself was ” Self-love and Self-care, learn it”. From that moment I no longer wanted to dwell on what was and I decided to stop stressing over little things.

“Growth is a must. Starve your distractions  and feed  your focus” – Eball. It was time to focus and find things that made me happy and learn to be independent without depending/needing the presence of others.  So I did that! I recorded my progress in my box. I decided to delete all social media for a year, take a break from school and just go on this self exploration journey! Mission accomplished…. 2017 I renewed my passport and traveled to two places out the country I’ve never been and one recurring place. I traveled to over 20 new states this year.

“The more we learn, the more we learn, the more we have to learn” K. Anderson. As the year progressed I’ve learned more and more about myself. I’ve learned how to be humble (hardest task ever)  I’ve learned happiness, I’ve learned how to meditate properly and become more grounded, I’ve learned inner peace, I’ve learned that I wear my emotions on my sleeve and talking to someone always helps. I’ve learned not to take things serious, I am no longer AS agressive as I use to be, I’ve learned that I gain satisfaction by seeing other happy. I’ve learned to give advice, I’ve learned to be more productive with my job, I’ve learned coping skills from work that I was able to utilize for myself.

Lastly I learned “true love = trust = health = promise = faith = unity = peace = mind = strength = forgiveness = life = you”-Amal. Best part about my struggle was having the support from work and my friends. Always surround yourself with positive beings! Any obstacle is nothing more but a life lesson. A year full of chaos was nothing more than a beautiful struggle I endured on my own.

Everyone knows that I grew as the only child and spoiled. But my mom cut the cord once I graduated from undergraduate school. I accomplished so much on my own this year (even though I graduated two years ago). I am ending 2017 with positivity and a smile. OOOOHHHH I also learned that I am expecting and I looking forward to meeting my little one when that time comes. In 2018 my goal is to be a more balanced individual and an awesome mom!!!

 

“Remember to love selflessly not selfishly”

12/31/2017

p.s All quotes came from my box of 2017 from co-workers and family members! thank you guys again.

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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra

Bermuda

Yes living the best life I can as Brittaney would say!

I have never worked for anyone who appreciates their employees enough to take them on a cruise!

Royal Caribbean best cruise line ever, everyone knows it! I wish I could share the detail on the pricing but I didn’t pay for much. Overall the room was nice, I didn’t like the obstructed balcony i had it ruined the view. I found myself going to co-worker room just to compare their balcony view with mine. Two days at sea before actually reaching the Island was tough, as much as I wanted to engage into the partying and drinking I was exhausted my first night on the boat I fell asleep fully clothes thinking I was going to a party…yeah sleep got me real good! Second day at sea I finessed my way into getting free drinks everywhere I went because 300 plus dollars was not an option for me for a drink package, No way! Blah Blah… okay Views from when we did get to Bermuda.

See where the yellow boats are?? yup that’s where my balcony is and that’s all i can see on it is yellow boats, what a drag! It took us forever to get off the boat because some of the gang woke up late! but this is some as they got off the boat.

We didn’t know where to explore so we walked around just site seeing.

We were introduced to the pink sand beach, which was a 20 minute drive from the dock.. So we got to see Different parts of Bermuda, it was beautiful!

By the way if you didn’t know and ever want to travel to the Caribbean, they do drive on the left side of the road and right side of the car! FYI. Driving to the beach was a bit scary, the driver didn’t really stay in his lane and the roads were very tiny, as well as curvy. But!!! we made it there safe =).  As soon as we got closer to the beach there a set of tall rocks and I was determine to climb them just to get a better view of everything. It was hard climbing rocks barefooted, but it was doable.

The scenery at this beach was beautiful and yes the sand was pink but I didn’t take any pictures of it oddly. It was hot as hell out as well! I felt like I lost 20 pounds….But anyway my favorite part of the cruise was the crew members! I absolutely adored them and made friends quick. They were polite, helpful and funny. They played a big part into why I enjoyed myself the most on this trip.

Albert, Pratmesh and Nuur were the crew member who made my stay very comfortable! One even adopted me as his cousin..lol! the Crew member kept us in the loop about the events that were happening at night off the ship! A “big” party gathering with not just people from the cruise but locals was a great experience. Caution/Safety was a huge factor due to hearing horror stories about kidnappings and killings of cruise member when then come to Bermuda.

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I was definitely ready for a good time, being that I slept a lot on the ship, attending one event at night wasn’t going to kill me! plus my boss and co-workers complained about not seeing me much! The party was nice!! lots of drunk individuals just having a good time!

Sadly I had an allergic reaction to something I ate or drunk and was in need of something to calm the inflammation down. I broke out all over my face, chest and back the next day. so I went from looking hot above to looking like this…

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I felt like the world was over and my vacation was ruined lol! But luckily when I’m home i would soak in a bath salt, so it was only right to get in the salt water! I stayed at the beach in the water for hours it took me 2 hours to get in the water and be comfortable because it was so cold! The salt water did eliminate the inflammation, but once i got out my skin was peeling like a mutant.

Overall my vacation was awesome! Nothing but good vibes and good people I loved it!!!. Sadly I came home after a week of being away and struggled to adjust back into the real world. From these two trips, I gave myself goals to travel to at least 32 states and 15 countries before I’m 30.

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Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Deep Cleanse

IMG_2362Okay so I know this picture looks absolutely gross, but this is what I’ve been dealing with my ENTIRE life. Scalp psoriasis is a mother**** I tell you! I have random outbreaks so I never know when my scalp is going to feel inflamed which is completely annoying, and the dermatologist prescribe medicated items that just make things a lot worse. What pissed me off the most was my stylist knew and was aware of my outbreak, she did absolutely nothing to treat my hair. A few days later this crap happened!  I’m still trying to learn the triggers though, so I’m trying to reduce my stress level and watch what I eat of course.

My boss and a few co-workers of mine recommended that I do a deep cleanse that would assist me with the dreadful problem, The famous apple cider vinegar/baking soda rinse, she stated that it was the best way to deep clean my locs. Sooo I decided to try it because I was tired of wearing freaking head wraps and feeling dirty knowing my scalp was producing a large amount of dandruff.

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I already had the apple cider vinegar because I like to drink it with some water. I already had the baking soda as well because I use it to make a face mask.. So yeah the only thing that was purchase was th lemon! I did my research of course and watched some YouTube vides to make sure this was completely safe, because I didn’t want any surprises.

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I took some pictures of the water as I added the ingredient into it, for those who want to try this don’t be puzzled of the water changes like I was lol because that’s apart of the whole experiment. But in these two picture it’s just showing how the water looks after I added the lemon.

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So of course online they give you the proportion sizes of the amount your suppose to add in the water, but who actually follows directions?? lol I know I don’t. In this picture I put what I thought was a decent amount of the vinegar and baking soda in the water. If the water starts to bubble that’s a norm, nothing drastic will happen. I also added some tea tree oil to the mix as well.

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I soaked my locs for 15 minutes the first time (I repeated this method twice) and the second time for about 30 minutes. This is how the water looked when I was done the second time. My hair was extremely dirty, three years worth of build up and recent dandruff… gross I know… Trying this cleanse not only cleaned my scalp and reduce the irritation of my scalp but it also, got rid of all the lent that was caught in my locs. I immediately conditioned my hair with a coconut deep conditioner afterward because baking soda will make your hair dry and brittle. Then I put a mix of tea tree oil, Jamaican black castro oil and raw coconut oil in my hair while drying it so ensure that my hair is moisturized.

 

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Crown Chakra, Solar Chakra

Loc’Versary

I’m a little late on some post I’ve been extremely busy and I have zero time management skills.

As of July 13, 2017, marks three years of my Loc journey. These three years has been tough, but it taught me how to love myself unconditionally. When I started my locs I was excited to have them, until no one around me ever had anything nice to say about them. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I constantly questioned if I made a mistake. The thought of cutting my hair off and starting over just wasn’t an option for me anymore. As the process progressed I started to hate how I looked and I felt completely hideous…. Every day I received unacceptable comments from my friends, family and even my work place. It’s like when you meet someone new the first thing they look at was my hair I felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere. A year passed, then they began to grow on me, I had my days where I would stare at myself in the mirror for hours practicing positive statements (e.g “Fatima you are a beautiful black queen”). At one point, I was wearing make-up excessively to make up for my insecurities and everyone who knows me know I’m not a huge fan of make-up. Second year came around and I started not to care about what others thought, my dad had Locs my entire life and as a Rastamon he never tried to fit into society means. Growing up in mix cultural family no matter where in the world whether in Jamaica or here in American having locs were never accepted, they are considered dreadful, dirty and whatever else people came up with. He told me I had to start loving myself in order to feel real beauty. My dad and I aren’t really so his advice meant a lot to me, yet he was the only one who ever made me feel good about my journey. My locs started to grow longer every couple of months and after a while the compliments started, at this point I didn’t care if anyone had something mean or nice to say about my hair. I am completely in love with my Locs and how I look with them. There’s nothing dreadful about my locs and I am quick to comment when people refer to my hair as “dreadlocks”
I am my hair and pretty girls do Loc!

 

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