Crown Chakra, Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Reflection of 2017

Going into and maintaining throughout the year of 2017 has been the toughest task of my life.  “Dont expect others to value you as much as you value yourself” -Moore. 2017 started off with a break/separation that was long over due from one person I expected to cherish me the most. December 16, 2016 I moved out of a home I shared with my “other half” into my own space. Living alone on my own for the first time in life was pretty depressing starting off. I struggled with having steady income, being behind in school and failing courses in graduate school. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I was completely unhappy with life. One day I began to write in my box and the first thing I wrote to myself was ” Self-love and Self-care, learn it”. From that moment I no longer wanted to dwell on what was and I decided to stop stressing over little things.

“Growth is a must. Starve your distractions  and feed  your focus” – Eball. It was time to focus and find things that made me happy and learn to be independent without depending/needing the presence of others.  So I did that! I recorded my progress in my box. I decided to delete all social media for a year, take a break from school and just go on this self exploration journey! Mission accomplished…. 2017 I renewed my passport and traveled to two places out the country I’ve never been and one recurring place. I traveled to over 20 new states this year.

“The more we learn, the more we learn, the more we have to learn” K. Anderson. As the year progressed I’ve learned more and more about myself. I’ve learned how to be humble (hardest task ever)  I’ve learned happiness, I’ve learned how to meditate properly and become more grounded, I’ve learned inner peace, I’ve learned that I wear my emotions on my sleeve and talking to someone always helps. I’ve learned not to take things serious, I am no longer AS agressive as I use to be, I’ve learned that I gain satisfaction by seeing other happy. I’ve learned to give advice, I’ve learned to be more productive with my job, I’ve learned coping skills from work that I was able to utilize for myself.

Lastly I learned “true love = trust = health = promise = faith = unity = peace = mind = strength = forgiveness = life = you”-Amal. Best part about my struggle was having the support from work and my friends. Always surround yourself with positive beings! Any obstacle is nothing more but a life lesson. A year full of chaos was nothing more than a beautiful struggle I endured on my own.

Everyone knows that I grew as the only child and spoiled. But my mom cut the cord once I graduated from undergraduate school. I accomplished so much on my own this year (even though I graduated two years ago). I am ending 2017 with positivity and a smile. OOOOHHHH I also learned that I am expecting and I looking forward to meeting my little one when that time comes. In 2018 my goal is to be a more balanced individual and an awesome mom!!!

 

“Remember to love selflessly not selfishly”

12/31/2017

p.s All quotes came from my box of 2017 from co-workers and family members! thank you guys again.

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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra

Haiti

SOOOOOOOO I’ve been attempting to live my best life toward the end of 2017! In the month of December I have made two trips, the goal is take three trips out the country a year and so far I’ve reached that goal

Haiti was definitely on my dream place list to the point a couple of year ago I consider moving to Haiti for a few years. Unfortunately so many things has happen in the world I had to reconsider that decision. Anyways I was super excited about this trip I started counting down the days!

When arriving to Haiti the weather was not the best, it was storming in Haiti like tropical rainforest type rain it was horrible. But of course I was not going to let the rain ruin my fun. What’s a little water or a lot of water? shit I’m in Haiti and I’m natural rain doesn’t bother me at all. I took french for about ALL my life so I could speak a little something to the natives. I definitely greeted everyone I saw due to my excitement. First destination while it was raining was the beach of course and I got in the water, because I’m on vacation and besides the rain falling it was hot out!

Haiti was absolutely beautiful, the people were friendly, the music was nice, the entertainment was great, the men were nice/dark just how I like my coffee and the food, the food was excellent!!!! Unfortunately because it was raining, my camera got wet and I couldn’t take as many picture as I liked. But Haiti is a trip I will definitely have to do again in the summer.


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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra

NOLA

As my co-worker would say “Fatima you’ve been living your best life this month”. October has been filled with new excitement.

First trip: New Orleans.

I have traveled up and down the east coast, but going to Louisiana was definitely a huge move for me! Lets start with the plane tickets…Okay I haven’t been on a plane since I was like 9yrs -old, so yes I was extremely terrified. I didn’t know where to began with buying plane ticket especially trying to find some while on a budget. Cheapest airline I found going there was Spirit Airline and American, two one-way tickets by the way Total was: 215, which was a great prices for a last minute trip. Now the taking off and landing part are theee worst!! It makes me feel nauseous. But when that plane landed, my heart started racing, filled with happiness I was so ready to explore the city!

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Sadly after taking this picture i wanted to sleep and that pretty much what I did the first night, New Orleans is an hour or two head of Virginia so it was past my usual bedtime. Where we stayed was in the art district, which was walking distance from the beautiful french quarter that makes downtown New Orleans very popular! First real day there (second day) we went on a boat ride, sadly I didn’t take any pictures! But before we got to the french quarter we caught a trolley.

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Coolest shit ever I swear! i tried my hardest not to appear as a tourist lol! After the first ride everywhere I went I got on one…Uber didn’t even exist to me and the people were so willing to help guide us around. I mean riding through the city was truly a melting pot for me. The diversity and culture presented was mild blowing. The European architectural style all over made me feel like I was in a different side of the world.

Above photos are pictures from the treme neighborhood, or course we attended the treme festival. I use to watch the treme series of new orleans on HBO, but to be actually there and learn the history was a wonderful experience. I learned that the Treme neighborhood was one of the oldest African-american and free of color people neighborhoods. This community has the Congo square and famous Louis Armstrong park.

Any one who knows me knows I’m a sucker for vendors, native food and cultural music. While attempting to get some food, they had kids performs “moko jumbie stilt dancing”. The kids danced to African drums in colorful costumes.

I was overjoyed!! I felt connected..Once the festival was over the streets were filled with people, Jazz music and art. There was a parade in the mist of exploring a different part of the city. They started the parade with the New Orleans own Zulu people. I was eager to get a picture, I’m a sucker for culture.

The street flooded with art, local high school bands playing and jazz music.

Art was being done and hung up to dry as we walked through the festivities! This was the best city I’ve traveled to thus far. I loved everything about this place from the beautiful accents, street jazz music, 24 hour bars, being able to walk/drink in public, and of course the food the creole dishes were the best!

Definitely planning for Mardi Gras 2019!!

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Heart Chakra, Third Eye Chakra

A day in the park.

 

When spring comes around I love to work outside. As I type away on my laptop, I couldn’t help but to be distracted by my beautiful surroundings. I love to see other people enjoy the park just as much as I do, the families, the music, the flowers, the birds, I could keep going….

Things I enjoyed while at the park:

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Noticing the little things…..

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These distractions assisted with my mental fatigue. I was calm, I was relaxed and I was restoring my mind!

 

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Third Eye Chakra

“New Beginnings”

This week I developed a new motto, well more like a phrase that sums up my explanation for my actions. “New Beginnings” has been my answer for everything this week.

Now before my “new beginnings” journey, I was so wrapped up in the wrong things and associated with the wrong people. For a long time, I felt like everything was taking a complete toll on me, from bad relationships, friendships, professional relationships, etc.. The list could go on. I instantly became overwhelmed with life changes and often felt depressed, but mostly alone. So, I decided to sit down, meditate, and have a long discussion with myself and some higher being. I concluded that I wanted a change!

I woke up the next morning and felt different. I sat in my car and before I know it I changed my number and deleted my WhatsApp account, my mind was moving so fast. I felt great for some reason  and nothing mattered anymore, I had a different attitude, different perception on how I wanted to live my life and the people I want to share my energy with.

This week has been amazing thus far, every day I woke up with feeling better and better. Now usually when I change my number I send out a mass text, but this time I can count my hand how many individuals have my number out of family and friends.

I came across a quote I noticed that was weirdly already my Whatsapp account status when I created a new one. The quote “I am thankful for those who left me. Because they taught me I can do it alone”- Chanakya. Clearly the person previously associated with my new number was in my head!!

I began to evaluate my life as I did the other day, but this time instead of being sappy I was thankful. Without those tremendous hurdles, loss of friendships, jobs, and better half’s, I will not be the strong individual I am currently or at least trying to be.  

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