Crown Chakra, Heart Chakra, Root Chakra, Sacral Chakra, Solar Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Reflection of 2017

Going into and maintaining throughout the year of 2017 has been the toughest task of my life.  “Dont expect others to value you as much as you value yourself” -Moore. 2017 started off with a break/separation that was long over due from one person I expected to cherish me the most. December 16, 2016 I moved out of a home I shared with my “other half” into my own space. Living alone on my own for the first time in life was pretty depressing starting off. I struggled with having steady income, being behind in school and failing courses in graduate school. My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I was completely unhappy with life. One day I began to write in my box and the first thing I wrote to myself was ” Self-love and Self-care, learn it”. From that moment I no longer wanted to dwell on what was and I decided to stop stressing over little things.

“Growth is a must. Starve your distractions  and feed  your focus” – Eball. It was time to focus and find things that made me happy and learn to be independent without depending/needing the presence of others.  So I did that! I recorded my progress in my box. I decided to delete all social media for a year, take a break from school and just go on this self exploration journey! Mission accomplished…. 2017 I renewed my passport and traveled to two places out the country I’ve never been and one recurring place. I traveled to over 20 new states this year.

“The more we learn, the more we learn, the more we have to learn” K. Anderson. As the year progressed I’ve learned more and more about myself. I’ve learned how to be humble (hardest task ever)  I’ve learned happiness, I’ve learned how to meditate properly and become more grounded, I’ve learned inner peace, I’ve learned that I wear my emotions on my sleeve and talking to someone always helps. I’ve learned not to take things serious, I am no longer AS agressive as I use to be, I’ve learned that I gain satisfaction by seeing other happy. I’ve learned to give advice, I’ve learned to be more productive with my job, I’ve learned coping skills from work that I was able to utilize for myself.

Lastly I learned “true love = trust = health = promise = faith = unity = peace = mind = strength = forgiveness = life = you”-Amal. Best part about my struggle was having the support from work and my friends. Always surround yourself with positive beings! Any obstacle is nothing more but a life lesson. A year full of chaos was nothing more than a beautiful struggle I endured on my own.

Everyone knows that I grew as the only child and spoiled. But my mom cut the cord once I graduated from undergraduate school. I accomplished so much on my own this year (even though I graduated two years ago). I am ending 2017 with positivity and a smile. OOOOHHHH I also learned that I am expecting and I looking forward to meeting my little one when that time comes. In 2018 my goal is to be a more balanced individual and an awesome mom!!!

 

“Remember to love selflessly not selfishly”

12/31/2017

p.s All quotes came from my box of 2017 from co-workers and family members! thank you guys again.

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Heart Chakra, Root Chakra

Haiti

SOOOOOOOO I’ve been attempting to live my best life toward the end of 2017! In the month of December I have made two trips, the goal is take three trips out the country a year and so far I’ve reached that goal

Haiti was definitely on my dream place list to the point a couple of year ago I consider moving to Haiti for a few years. Unfortunately so many things has happen in the world I had to reconsider that decision. Anyways I was super excited about this trip I started counting down the days!

When arriving to Haiti the weather was not the best, it was storming in Haiti like tropical rainforest type rain it was horrible. But of course I was not going to let the rain ruin my fun. What’s a little water or a lot of water? shit I’m in Haiti and I’m natural rain doesn’t bother me at all. I took french for about ALL my life so I could speak a little something to the natives. I definitely greeted everyone I saw due to my excitement. First destination while it was raining was the beach of course and I got in the water, because I’m on vacation and besides the rain falling it was hot out!

Haiti was absolutely beautiful, the people were friendly, the music was nice, the entertainment was great, the men were nice/dark just how I like my coffee and the food, the food was excellent!!!! Unfortunately because it was raining, my camera got wet and I couldn’t take as many picture as I liked. But Haiti is a trip I will definitely have to do again in the summer.


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Sacral Chakra, Third Eye Chakra, Throat Chakra

Do high expectations set you up for disappointments?

We all have expectations in our lives. Me personally I have expectations of myself and others. I do believe having expectation can affects ones happiness, if you allow it to. The easiest thing people can say is to not have expectations of others, but my thing is whether you’re my friend, family member, significant other, dog, cat, if i put a certain effort into something based off of our relationship I’m going to “want” the same effort back. I was told ” the nature of relationships shows that one might give more and others might or might not, everyone behavior is different”. I try to always put a lot of effort into a relationship doesn’t matter which one it is and as stated before I “would like” the same in return. Sometimes I live up to my expectations and others usually don’t, but that’s okay! Just because you shoot for the  stars doesn’t means others will be willing to do the same. My co-worker stated that he always have high expaectations of people he surround himself by and whether or not they meet his expecatations, he never give up, he keeps trying. I thinks its great to have high expaectations, holding not only yourself but others to a high standard pushes everyone to be a better person. Most people perform their best when living up to high expectations. When people don’t live up to my expectations I am slightly disappointed, but that’s my issue not theirs and no one should be penalized for it. I can’t change a person or judge them for not living up to what I wanted them too, because at the end of the daythey don’t owe me anything. You learn a person flaws and who they are when expectations are put in place, that doesn’t mean become disappointed with them. It’s all a learning experience!  So its okay to have low or high expectations and there’s nothing wrong with being the one who often goes above and beyond all the time. I love knowing that I put my best effort into something whether I get what i want back or not. My attempt to the goal was enough satisfaction to keep myself pleased. So never be disappointed when people don’t live p to “your” expectations, just be great and continue aiming high!

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Root Chakra

Attempting to Eat better

Recently I was informed by my doctor that I’m negative blood type and that I needed to eliminate certain foods out my diet. Now everyone who knows me know I am a pretty healthy eater. I’ve tried the vegan lifestyle, enjoyed it but it wasn’t for me and vegetarian as well but I love fish tooo much! Sadly my doctor told me I had to eliminate the fish part and only consume veggies, fruits and whatever else that would provide me protein. Well above there is a piece of fish in the picture of course, tuna steak to be exact! Now I’ve been eating salads for lunch for two weeks straight with fish, trying to be on this weight loss journey and become more healthier. Needless to say I am miserable lol salads are starting to taste like grass and after my workouts I’m always extremely hungry. I enjoy being a pescatarian and I dread the idea of not eating fish anymore. I gained more weight attempting to be a vegan/vegetarian than I have eating fish. Taking any supplement or pill is against everything I stand for, so the idea of taking a b12 supplement isn’t an option for me especially when I can eat fish. I can say my diet is weird, I don’t like eggs, milk (unless its almond milk), and certain cheese. Guess I’m all over the place! Still trying to figure things out, but If you’re reading this post and have any suggestions to make the journey less hectic  please don’t hesitate to comment.

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Third Eye Chakra

“New Beginnings”

This week I developed a new motto, well more like a phrase that sums up my explanation for my actions. “New Beginnings” has been my answer for everything this week.

Now before my “new beginnings” journey, I was so wrapped up in the wrong things and associated with the wrong people. For a long time, I felt like everything was taking a complete toll on me, from bad relationships, friendships, professional relationships, etc.. The list could go on. I instantly became overwhelmed with life changes and often felt depressed, but mostly alone. So, I decided to sit down, meditate, and have a long discussion with myself and some higher being. I concluded that I wanted a change!

I woke up the next morning and felt different. I sat in my car and before I know it I changed my number and deleted my WhatsApp account, my mind was moving so fast. I felt great for some reason  and nothing mattered anymore, I had a different attitude, different perception on how I wanted to live my life and the people I want to share my energy with.

This week has been amazing thus far, every day I woke up with feeling better and better. Now usually when I change my number I send out a mass text, but this time I can count my hand how many individuals have my number out of family and friends.

I came across a quote I noticed that was weirdly already my Whatsapp account status when I created a new one. The quote “I am thankful for those who left me. Because they taught me I can do it alone”- Chanakya. Clearly the person previously associated with my new number was in my head!!

I began to evaluate my life as I did the other day, but this time instead of being sappy I was thankful. Without those tremendous hurdles, loss of friendships, jobs, and better half’s, I will not be the strong individual I am currently or at least trying to be.  

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