We all have expectations in our lives. Me personally I have expectations of myself and others. I do believe having expectation can affects ones happiness, if you allow it to. The easiest thing people can say is to not have expectations of others, but my thing is whether you’re my friend, family member, significant other, dog, cat, if i put a certain effort into something based off of our relationship I’m going to “want” the same effort back. I was told ” the nature of relationships shows that one might give more and others might or might not, everyone behavior is different”. I try to always put a lot of effort into a relationship doesn’t matter which one it is and as stated before I “would like” the same in return. Sometimes I live up to my expectations and others usually don’t, but that’s okay! Just because you shoot for the stars doesn’t means others will be willing to do the same. My co-worker stated that he always have high expaectations of people he surround himself by and whether or not they meet his expecatations, he never give up, he keeps trying. I thinks its great to have high expaectations, holding not only yourself but others to a high standard pushes everyone to be a better person. Most people perform their best when living up to high expectations. When people don’t live up to my expectations I am slightly disappointed, but that’s my issue not theirs and no one should be penalized for it. I can’t change a person or judge them for not living up to what I wanted them too, because at the end of the daythey don’t owe me anything. You learn a person flaws and who they are when expectations are put in place, that doesn’t mean become disappointed with them. It’s all a learning experience! So its okay to have low or high expectations and there’s nothing wrong with being the one who often goes above and beyond all the time. I love knowing that I put my best effort into something whether I get what i want back or not. My attempt to the goal was enough satisfaction to keep myself pleased. So never be disappointed when people don’t live p to “your” expectations, just be great and continue aiming high!
Recently I was informed by my doctor that I’m negative blood type and that I needed to eliminate certain foods out my diet. Now everyone who knows me know I am a pretty healthy eater. I’ve tried the vegan lifestyle, enjoyed it but it wasn’t for me and vegetarian as well but I love fish tooo much! Sadly my doctor told me I had to eliminate the fish part and only consume veggies, fruits and whatever else that would provide me protein. Well above there is a piece of fish in the picture of course, tuna steak to be exact! Now I’ve been eating salads for lunch for two weeks straight with fish, trying to be on this weight loss journey and become more healthier. Needless to say I am miserable lol salads are starting to taste like grass and after my workouts I’m always extremely hungry. I enjoy being a pescatarian and I dread the idea of not eating fish anymore. I gained more weight attempting to be a vegan/vegetarian than I have eating fish. Taking any supplement or pill is against everything I stand for, so the idea of taking a b12 supplement isn’t an option for me especially when I can eat fish. I can say my diet is weird, I don’t like eggs, milk (unless its almond milk), and certain cheese. Guess I’m all over the place! Still trying to figure things out, but If you’re reading this post and have any suggestions to make the journey less hectic please don’t hesitate to comment.
This week I developed a new motto, well more like a phrase that sums up my explanation for my actions. “New Beginnings” has been my answer for everything this week.
Now before my “new beginnings” journey, I was so wrapped up in the wrong things and associated with the wrong people. For a long time, I felt like everything was taking a complete toll on me, from bad relationships, friendships, professional relationships, etc.. The list could go on. I instantly became overwhelmed with life changes and often felt depressed, but mostly alone. So, I decided to sit down, meditate, and have a long discussion with myself and some higher being. I concluded that I wanted a change!
I woke up the next morning and felt different. I sat in my car and before I know it I changed my number and deleted my WhatsApp account, my mind was moving so fast. I felt great for some reason and nothing mattered anymore, I had a different attitude, different perception on how I wanted to live my life and the people I want to share my energy with.
This week has been amazing thus far, every day I woke up with feeling better and better. Now usually when I change my number I send out a mass text, but this time I can count my hand how many individuals have my number out of family and friends.
I came across a quote I noticed that was weirdly already my Whatsapp account status when I created a new one. The quote “I am thankful for those who left me. Because they taught me I can do it alone”- Chanakya. Clearly the person previously associated with my new number was in my head!!
I began to evaluate my life as I did the other day, but this time instead of being sappy I was thankful. Without those tremendous hurdles, loss of friendships, jobs, and better half’s, I will not be the strong individual I am currently or at least trying to be.